|i'm finally ready for steps 2 and 3...
||[Nov. 5th, 2006|05:57 am]
|||||my stomach is growling at me...||]|
this week has been... horrifying, then eye-opening, then a blessing. mike got into a bad car accident on monday. he was making a left at a busy intersection and i guess he didnt have enough time or the woman coming the other direction didnt slow down or wasn't paying attention... they collided... both cars were totalled. mike wasn't wearing his seatbelt (despite the fact that i've nagged him about it a million times) thankfully he was in his mom's volvo... one of the safest cars, (they say if he was in any other car he'd be dead), so the airbags deployed so he didnt go through the windshield, but he flew out of the driver seat, the car spun a bunch of times,he hit his head and ended up in the passenger side. he had a concussion, a huge laceration on the side of his head, and a sprained knee. the worst part was he had bleeding in his brain. he went unconscious and they were close to losing him. but he came to and the bleeding lessoned, then after a day it absorbed and the blood was gone. they kept him in ICU for two days, then dishcarged him from the hospital on thursday. he couldn't move his left leg at all at first, but now he's up and walking again (he limps and wobbles a little bit though). his short term memory was destroyed at first, but now it's getting better each day. he isn't asking the same questions every ten minutes and not remembering he already asked anymore. this event is a fucking miracle. people aren't supposed to live when theyre in a head-on collision and aren't wearing their seatbelt. i know a higher power was watching over him. there was doubt in my mind before this that there is a god, but the doubt is gone. God saved him. both mike and i have so much gratitude now. life is so fucking precious. It's like god bitch slapped us to say 'wake the hell up, assholes. i'm here and i have a plan for you'. before i was doing what the say, "fake it 'til you make it", meaning i was praying to a higher power, but felt like i was just talking to my bed. now i know there's someone out there watching over us. i'm not going to take anything for granted anymore. i am filled with gratitude and for once i think i value life.
step 2: "we came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity"
step 3: "we made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him"